things motherhood has taught me

no. 1.

how to grieve

In those moments that feel like they will never end. The diaper changes. The endless nursing sessions, the sleepless nights, the fights to get ready in the morning. I don’t even realize those stages are over until we are on to another seemingly endless battle. I’ve learned to grieve those hard phases…so, Trace Adkins, you can kiss my ass. I’m not gonna miss it all. Some of it, yes, but there’s a strange comfort in the grieving process. Knowing that I’ve loved something so hard, that I’m a little sad it’s over…There’s something to be said with that.

So, as I’m grieving the chapped nipples and sleepless nights…It’s a blessing I was able to experience them. And just cause I don’t want them back, doesn’t mean I didn’t appreciate them.

which brings me to no. 2

no. 2.

gratitude + perspective

It’s hard y’all. the endless hours that is motherhood...

Yall think about that moment you fall

into bed. That moment of silence after a day of bickering, non stop snacks, and the never ending shit show. I know yall

know the one. The few minutes after everyone’s fast asleep, where you can take a deep breath, and you know that the people you love most are safe under your roof….whew. gratitude

I’ve learned to try and take in those moments, hold perspective and soak it in. even the not so perfect moments.

…being grateful for the poison. and the picturesque.

no 3

how to heal

how to forgive. how to apologize.

realizing that forgiveness isn’t about the other person; that its actually…about me.

I’ve learned how healing it is to say im sorry and how powerful it is to show your kids that changed  behavior, is actually what an apology is.

breaking chains is forgiveness… so that we can finally heal.

no. 4.

that there’s power in the process

grace upon grace, upon grace y’all.

-because just when i think i have it figured out, i don’t. It’s okay to fail. Ive been learning to be a mom

just as long as they’ve been alive. Showing the kids that there is power in failure and being able to show them that IS hUGE.

Whether it’s a dirty house or a missed deadline…i am enough. i am enough. i AM ENOUGH.

cheers to the hardest, most selfless, demanding, thankless, relentlessly beautiful job that WE were so specifically chosen for.

xo,

michelle